Over the next few months I just continued working for the NHS staffbank. I had another wedding coming up. One of my aunt’s was getting married. It was going to be at some highland lodges, where my dad now worked and lived. I had lost some weight since my ankle injury. I couldn’t go back to the gym but I had started going swimming regularly again. It was a nice pool and I always felt better after going. The wedding was in autumn as it was autumn themed. I bought a nice blue dress with a red ribbon tie around it. We stayed in a few of the lodges. While there I met a polish guy, who worked beside my dad, who I had a drink with as most other people were in couples I didn’t feel I had much choice. We swapped numbers and I went back to Musselburgh. A couple of months later he phoned saying my dad had said I had a spare room and he wanted to come into Edinburgh. I said it was musselburgh I lived in a bit out of town but I agreed for him to stay a few weeks. He moved in and said he was going to look for work. I knew I wasn’t supposed to be having anyone living there. If my landlord found out she would probably hit the roof. He was also mostly staying in the box room. The bigger room was mine. He didn’t mind but she might have. He sometimes paid for food and gas but only when he felt like it and his English wasn’t very good. I was getting fed up with him being there and he sometimes wanted to do things together such as going to the shops. I did feel a bit safer with someone else in the house but he was becoming a problem as he wasn’t finding work as easily as he seemed to think he would. We occasionally went out together for a drink but it definitely wasn’t a relationship. Eventually after a few months he went home. I went to wave him goodbye at the airport bus. I had the flat to myself again. I had lost contact with a lot of old friends so I had joined an online group. So far I had met a few people but they just went out now and again and only wanted to do anything through the group. I met a girl who was a bit different though. She took my number and we met up for things like dinner and drinks and went to the races one day which was a big thing in musselburgh. She was supposed to meet me for new year though and I was looking forward to it as new year was always important in my family and she never turned up. I had to meet some people I didn’t really know. I tried contacting her but she ignored me. I didn’t know what her problem was but I wasn’t chasing her. I got my passport renewed and I went on holiday with a friend I still seen and her boyfriend. They were more like friends so it was okay. I wasn’t sure it was going to happen at some points but we went to marmaris in turkey for a week. It was a nice week away, although I nearly got sun stroke and had to cool myself down for the rest of day by having cold showers and lying in a dark room. It was after a nice day out on a boat but I went on the trip the following day. I just wrapped myself up well. We all had quite a nice time, there were some disagreements and things with living together but nothing significant and we got to know some of the resort staff. I didn’t really see her for a while after it though as we had seen quite a bit of each other. I still had to use the online meeting group. The girl had contacted me again saying she had some problems and something had come up which was why she hadn’t met me. I thought it was a pathetic excuse as you can still send a text but I gave her another chance. She came round to my flat sometimes and I went to hers. We went out sometimes and there were some other people that sometimes came with us. I had always met my friends in natural ways through doing similar things or a class together. I had never had to do anything online but she wanted to do things away from that while others didn’t really, so I felt I had to give her a chance.
When my landlord started saying she wanted the property back to sell she was quite helpful saying she knew how to check if the documents were right etc as her dad had some legal experience. She had also said she could help me find work as she knew how to write CVs. I let her try but I wasn’t sure she was really helping. The whole process of putting me out took a while anyway as my landlord was supposed to give me an official notice to quit which she did and I took it to the council so I could get accomodation but the woman I spoke to said it was invalid as there was something it was supposed to say but it didn’t and that meant I wouldn’t be entitled to accomodation. I messaged her saying she would have to give me a proper document. She said that was but I said I couldn’t leave until I got one as that’s what the council were saying. She just kept trying to get me to say when I was moving out. Eventually she provided me with another one which I took to the council. Again there was a problem. I couldn’t believe it. They were re-reading it and they had to email her about it and contact me. They did and said there was a reason why it was okay and said they would give me accomodation. I told her I was waiting on something coming up and when it did gave her a date for moving out. It had been 2 and a half years which was the longest place I had lived as an adult but she made the last few months really stressful. I don’t know where she expected me to go but I got put in a temporary sheltered living complex out in Tranent which was another 20 minutes further out than musselburgh. Musselburgh was all houses and beaches on the way out but this was a whole new kettle of fish as I had to go over a motorway to get there. I ended up spending 6 months there but it was better than a room somewhere and at least I wasn’t going back the way.
Living with Neurodivergence 